Friday, February 6, 2009
Wow
Holy Crap! Check out my ticker. That might be a little inaccurate at least my dr seems to think I am not that far along but I am going to use my judgement until I know something else.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Dirty Dream
Last night a dreamed(dreamt?)that I gave birth to a cat.
Have you ever tried to burp a cat?
It's not easy!
Have you ever tried to burp a cat?
It's not easy!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
The Beginning
I am not very detail oriented. I am bad about leaving out details and think faster than I type of talk. It occured to me that I haven't really gave many details about finding out and such so today I am going to tell my conception story.
November was an extremely hard month for us. We had some things going on financially that had to be taken care of. We were fighting emotional battles within ourselves and estranged family and it was taking a toll on our relationship. I think we all know that when you throw TTC in the mix of that, then you have a recipe for disaster.
I was already late for my October period and was starting to get a little crazy. I had really worked myself up and was convinced that the pregnancy test were wrong and that I was indeed pregnant. When I did start I was devestated, again, and bitchy, again, and depressed, again. I was a treat.
Lather, rinse, & repeat for December as my november period was off from being late in October and didn't come until middle of december. Eric and I were having so much trouble that I wouldn't even fill out the RE paperwork because I just couldn't see it. I knew that filling out that paperwork was it and if we did commit to a medicated cycle the odds of it working, in my mind, were super slim.
I decided to take a trip and get away to see my best friend. I have never traveled anywhere alone and she works at a ski resort and we would have free access to some of the best skiing in Colorado so I was stoked about getting away and seeing her.
We had decided to take a complete break in december. No charting, temping, test taking, talking about a baby, no timed sex. I was so excited about the trip I don't even remember when my period was. I do know that I drank wine like it was my second job. We enjoyed the holidays and enjoyed New Years.
Eric's birthday was January 14th and we were having a little cookout for him and thinking that I was supposed to start my period soon, I decided to take a test. I didn't expect anything but a negative and honestly knew that I would not be that sad when I saw it. I just didn't want to miss the opportunity of giving my husband a positive for his birthday.
Well the test popped up positive IMMEDIATELY.
I took 1 more on the way home...in a gas station. (Don't judge me)
I would love for this part to be a sweet way that I wrapped up the stick and gave it to him with all the other presents. I did intend to do it that way. However, what really happened is this.
I burst through the door.
He was playing Grand Theft Auto iv.
I shoved the stick in his face and said, "look, you are going to be a dad".
Blink
Blink
"What?"
"Your lying"
"That's fake"
I showed him both tests and had another test ready for when I had to pee again.
Here is the part of the story where I would like to tell you that he jumped up and down and swept me in his arms and we danced in the kitchen. Here is what really happened.
He went to the garage.
I followed him in.
He had tears in his eyes.
He saw me looking at him.
"You better not be joking"
Then we hugged and laughed and all that good stuff.
After dinner we took the test together. I peed in a cup and he dipped the test and we got another positive.
E was ecstatic.
We told our parents that night. And pretty much everyone else knew the next day.
Now as for my due date, I don't have a confirmed one yet. I think I am about 7 weeks. My HCG test showed high like 7-12 weeks when I should have been 5 weeks so that was a little confusing. My Dr said you can't use that to calculate how far along you are.
The ultrasound maching showed my sach to be measuring 5 1/2 weeks last Monday and yesterday he didn't really tell me. Since I don't know the exact day of my last period I may not have a calculated due date until March 2nd when I go back to the DR.
We live in such a small town and have 3 OB Drs. Apparently the sonogram machine isn't the best and that is why we could barely see the heart beat. My Dr. doesn't do the vaginal ultrasound and I didn't hear the heart beat but I did see if flashing.
It has been 8 years since I have done this so I am open to any and all assvice. Also I am looking for the best ticker and I will just use my calculations until next month. But that is where we are so far.
November was an extremely hard month for us. We had some things going on financially that had to be taken care of. We were fighting emotional battles within ourselves and estranged family and it was taking a toll on our relationship. I think we all know that when you throw TTC in the mix of that, then you have a recipe for disaster.
I was already late for my October period and was starting to get a little crazy. I had really worked myself up and was convinced that the pregnancy test were wrong and that I was indeed pregnant. When I did start I was devestated, again, and bitchy, again, and depressed, again. I was a treat.
Lather, rinse, & repeat for December as my november period was off from being late in October and didn't come until middle of december. Eric and I were having so much trouble that I wouldn't even fill out the RE paperwork because I just couldn't see it. I knew that filling out that paperwork was it and if we did commit to a medicated cycle the odds of it working, in my mind, were super slim.
I decided to take a trip and get away to see my best friend. I have never traveled anywhere alone and she works at a ski resort and we would have free access to some of the best skiing in Colorado so I was stoked about getting away and seeing her.
We had decided to take a complete break in december. No charting, temping, test taking, talking about a baby, no timed sex. I was so excited about the trip I don't even remember when my period was. I do know that I drank wine like it was my second job. We enjoyed the holidays and enjoyed New Years.
Eric's birthday was January 14th and we were having a little cookout for him and thinking that I was supposed to start my period soon, I decided to take a test. I didn't expect anything but a negative and honestly knew that I would not be that sad when I saw it. I just didn't want to miss the opportunity of giving my husband a positive for his birthday.
Well the test popped up positive IMMEDIATELY.
I took 1 more on the way home...in a gas station. (Don't judge me)
I would love for this part to be a sweet way that I wrapped up the stick and gave it to him with all the other presents. I did intend to do it that way. However, what really happened is this.
I burst through the door.
He was playing Grand Theft Auto iv.
I shoved the stick in his face and said, "look, you are going to be a dad".
Blink
Blink
"What?"
"Your lying"
"That's fake"
I showed him both tests and had another test ready for when I had to pee again.
Here is the part of the story where I would like to tell you that he jumped up and down and swept me in his arms and we danced in the kitchen. Here is what really happened.
He went to the garage.
I followed him in.
He had tears in his eyes.
He saw me looking at him.
"You better not be joking"
Then we hugged and laughed and all that good stuff.
After dinner we took the test together. I peed in a cup and he dipped the test and we got another positive.
E was ecstatic.
We told our parents that night. And pretty much everyone else knew the next day.
Now as for my due date, I don't have a confirmed one yet. I think I am about 7 weeks. My HCG test showed high like 7-12 weeks when I should have been 5 weeks so that was a little confusing. My Dr said you can't use that to calculate how far along you are.
The ultrasound maching showed my sach to be measuring 5 1/2 weeks last Monday and yesterday he didn't really tell me. Since I don't know the exact day of my last period I may not have a calculated due date until March 2nd when I go back to the DR.
We live in such a small town and have 3 OB Drs. Apparently the sonogram machine isn't the best and that is why we could barely see the heart beat. My Dr. doesn't do the vaginal ultrasound and I didn't hear the heart beat but I did see if flashing.
It has been 8 years since I have done this so I am open to any and all assvice. Also I am looking for the best ticker and I will just use my calculations until next month. But that is where we are so far.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Tick, Tick, Tick
I have one hour until I leave for my ultrasound and the clock seems to be frozen on 1:14.
To be fair to all the google searches that we bloggers make fun of, I thought that I would comprise a list of my own personal google searches this week. Some were googled by me and others by Eric while I was laying in bed in tears. I will let you guess the ones he had the pleasure of googleing.
1. 5 ½ weeks and we didn’t see a heart beat?
2. Orgasm and Miscarriage?
3. Really high HCG levels but no heart beat
4. Brownish discharge in 6th week of pregnancy?
5. Can I use face wash with sylic acid while pregnant? (still not sure)
6. Molar Pregnancy
7. Signs you are having twins
8. 6 weeks pregnant and extremely hungry
9. due date calculator
10. 7 weeks pregnant and so very hungry
11. 7 weeks pregnant and still hungry as I am eating is this normal.
12. am I having twins quiz
13. Pregnant belly shots at 6 weeks (for comparison as I feel that my stomach is HUGE already and I am not even playing.
So there you have my humbling list. I am sure there were more but I can’t remember now.
I am serious about the hunger. Has anyone else experienced this? I am eating something small and healthy every 2-3 hours. Sometimes I think its nausea but it always get better after I eat something. I have never had hunger pains until now and I swear they are real and they suck.
Well I killed 15 minutes so now I will go eat string cheese.
I will check back with good news…
To be fair to all the google searches that we bloggers make fun of, I thought that I would comprise a list of my own personal google searches this week. Some were googled by me and others by Eric while I was laying in bed in tears. I will let you guess the ones he had the pleasure of googleing.
1. 5 ½ weeks and we didn’t see a heart beat?
2. Orgasm and Miscarriage?
3. Really high HCG levels but no heart beat
4. Brownish discharge in 6th week of pregnancy?
5. Can I use face wash with sylic acid while pregnant? (still not sure)
6. Molar Pregnancy
7. Signs you are having twins
8. 6 weeks pregnant and extremely hungry
9. due date calculator
10. 7 weeks pregnant and so very hungry
11. 7 weeks pregnant and still hungry as I am eating is this normal.
12. am I having twins quiz
13. Pregnant belly shots at 6 weeks (for comparison as I feel that my stomach is HUGE already and I am not even playing.
So there you have my humbling list. I am sure there were more but I can’t remember now.
I am serious about the hunger. Has anyone else experienced this? I am eating something small and healthy every 2-3 hours. Sometimes I think its nausea but it always get better after I eat something. I have never had hunger pains until now and I swear they are real and they suck.
Well I killed 15 minutes so now I will go eat string cheese.
I will check back with good news…
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Treading Water
I am sorry about the spotty(pun intended) updates. My status has been downgraded as all the bleeding has stopped. I am still sitting on my ass today. Partly because I still want to be careful. But also because, its Thursday, and no person in their right mind starts anything on Thursday. I have manages to get much done through the way of lost though. I have finished season 3 and will start 4 with dinner.
I am still worried about the lack of baby in the pregnancy sac but I guess Monday will show us what we need to know. I feel optimistic as I watched TLC all day yesterday and was all aaaawwwwww. I also was very sick this morning and thankful that I could climb back into bed and sleep it off. I am eating every couple of hours. I would love to say that I am blaming my hunger on the baby to get to eat whatever I want but, DUDE. I go from normal to starving in like 5 seconds. The kicker is I don't have a clue what I want to eat. I get pissed if no one has any suggestions and then I just eat fruit loops. I had a huge salad today which hopefully will make up for all the shit that is in fruit loops.
I have to give props to Eric. That man has really taken care of my and his (potential) offspring. He has cooked and cleaned and laid around with me. Held me and even checks my boobs every little while to see if they are still sore. He is totally vested in us and I am just totally is sappy starry love with him.
E is home from his dad's and I am so happy that I he is here. I had him stay over with his father for a couple of night because I was terrified that I would loose the baby and he would be here. He didn't want to leave me and the first thing he did today was check on "the belly". Its really just fat and bloat at this point but if hes attached to it then who's to judge. Rubbing it makes me feel better so I totally get it.
Well I going back to my couch cause honestly? I am going to milk the last few hours of my bed rest. It don't happen often folks and hopefully this will be the last week laying on my back until Eric takes me on a baby moon.
Love ya!!
I am still worried about the lack of baby in the pregnancy sac but I guess Monday will show us what we need to know. I feel optimistic as I watched TLC all day yesterday and was all aaaawwwwww. I also was very sick this morning and thankful that I could climb back into bed and sleep it off. I am eating every couple of hours. I would love to say that I am blaming my hunger on the baby to get to eat whatever I want but, DUDE. I go from normal to starving in like 5 seconds. The kicker is I don't have a clue what I want to eat. I get pissed if no one has any suggestions and then I just eat fruit loops. I had a huge salad today which hopefully will make up for all the shit that is in fruit loops.
I have to give props to Eric. That man has really taken care of my and his (potential) offspring. He has cooked and cleaned and laid around with me. Held me and even checks my boobs every little while to see if they are still sore. He is totally vested in us and I am just totally is sappy starry love with him.
E is home from his dad's and I am so happy that I he is here. I had him stay over with his father for a couple of night because I was terrified that I would loose the baby and he would be here. He didn't want to leave me and the first thing he did today was check on "the belly". Its really just fat and bloat at this point but if hes attached to it then who's to judge. Rubbing it makes me feel better so I totally get it.
Well I going back to my couch cause honestly? I am going to milk the last few hours of my bed rest. It don't happen often folks and hopefully this will be the last week laying on my back until Eric takes me on a baby moon.
Love ya!!
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
PSST.. over here
Well I saw the ob this morning and I was upgraded to bedrest. The Dr. said it was possible I could have tried to miscarry but of course he doesn't really know.
I had an ultrasound this morning and I am measuring 5 1/2 weeks. I so damned confused. The blood test showed 7-12 weeks. My Dr. said not to count on that and the ultrasound was correct.
There is a sac but no baby. It is still early so I am trying my best to be positive.
So I am on bedrest for a week and they will check me again monday.
I don't have a laptop and the male pregnancy patrol is pretty tuff around here, so I don't know when I will get to update.
I feel ok right now so we will hope for the best!
I had an ultrasound this morning and I am measuring 5 1/2 weeks. I so damned confused. The blood test showed 7-12 weeks. My Dr. said not to count on that and the ultrasound was correct.
There is a sac but no baby. It is still early so I am trying my best to be positive.
So I am on bedrest for a week and they will check me again monday.
I don't have a laptop and the male pregnancy patrol is pretty tuff around here, so I don't know when I will get to update.
I feel ok right now so we will hope for the best!
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