Somebody slap me

I am just a big gooey pile of nerves today. If it can be worried about I have thought about it today.

As I approach my SECOND TRIMESTER(WTF!!!), time seems to be slipping away. 1 whole part of my pregnancy will be history as of Sunday. I can HEAR TICKING PEOPLE! I created a master list of things that needed to be done and holleee shit did I not need to do that.

Home repair, taxes, baby room, finances, animal care/training, cleaning, bills, money, dollars, pennies, lack of money ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, maternity leave, c-section.

See?

I have already ruined Eric's day off by worrying so much that he is at home worrying and playing demolition to the bathroom.

Logically, I know that everything is going to be fine. I did this before when I was barely considered an adult. I have a wonderful husband we own our home and have jobs and money. I didn't have any of this before so I know everything is going to be ok.

I need to burn the master list all it did was put me in a shitty mood.

My Dr. is hell bent on performing a c-section and I feel strongly that given my knowledge on things now and highter maturity level and the length of time between births that I could safely try to give the baby a natural birth.

Does anyone have any insight on vbacs(vaginal births after cecerean?) I want the experiance and the birth classes.

I was induced before my due date with E and honestly? I don't feel like he was ready and that affected the birth process. I was also considerably smaller then and I think that now that I have done all the spreading I am hopefully ever going to do that I should at least be able to try.

Wordless Wednesday (Hungover edition)

Uncooth

Is it just me or does my widget baby look like he has a huge peen? I can help it, everytime I look at it that is what I see. I need help.

Oh yeah, the mouse ate my cookies. That fucker is goin down. I am buying glue traps tomorrow and PETA? Well, you can kiss my ass.

So Worth the Wait

Who's your sucky blogger

So, raise your hand if you have had a sick child this week and totally fell short on your ICLW responsibilities.

Marie: Me, Me, Me!!!!

I am sorry I do hope to get back into the swing of things.

This virus that E has will not die. He will get better and instantly have a 101 fever all over again. He has missed 3 days of school and this is the first time he has missed all year. He is never sick and so when he is I tend to go overboard. You name the symptom and he has had it. I have used a whole can of Oust, hoping to kill all the germs I can, but I feel a good cleaning is in order..joy.

I have been reading when I can and commenting and I am probably not that far behind but I feel that my blog is suffering.

eh, I have never been an over achiever so I guess you have to take what you get.

And so it begins

“Well, I used to tell my husband that we could be professional baby makers. I wasn’t sick a day. I wore my pregnancies beautifully and most people didn’t even know I was with child until about 7 months. I had more energy than usual and my house never looked better. I just don’t know what it would feel like to have morning sickness or pains! I guess some people just handle it better than others.”


Bite me, grandma!

The Hunger

I would like to dedicate this post to food and crazy dreams. I don't know if I have forgotten the weird pregnancy stuff or if this child is completely different from E. I can't eat meat. Well, I can't eat anything I can picture raw. I can eat Hot dogs, pepperoni, tuna and shrimp. The rest of what I consume is fruit and cheese. Healthy right? I haven't had strong cravings only strong adversions. I wan't the cravings! I want to make Eric drive the BFE to get me something I can't live without but sadly, I can only name the things I can't eat. I am hungry ALL THE TIME. I have been wanting chicken and dumplings and my father in law is going to fix some today and I am going to try to eat them so wish me luck!

I would also like to comment on my crazy ass dreams!

Last night was the first night that I have actually dreamed about the baby. My dreams post last nights included: Them smoke monster in Lost, Syid in Lost and going to the middle east and shopping in a mall with my grandma.

Last night I dreamed that the baby came early and we were in no way prepared. The baby's room was not done so I decided to make him a home in my closet that just got cleaned yesterday. We have no crib or bassinet so Eric fashioned a bed out of a indoor basketball goal complete with a lighted scoreboard. It was a boy and he could talk so I kept apoligizing to him about not being prepared and he was all "Mom, its cool...REALY." I let E hold him and before I knew it he had laid him down and forgot where he put him.

That happened THREE TIMES.

We finally realized that we would just wait until he cried and then we could find him.

It never occured to me to stop letting him have the baby.

I am questioning my parenting skills right now.

I am also hungry!