My office smells like a teenager's Ford Focus.
Bubble yum bubble gum- Watermelon.
We have one of those spray thingies that they put a different scent in every month and think the guy came Monday, but I have been so stuffy with sinus crap that I just smelled it today.
Well Monday I was supposed to take my monthly trip to CVS to get my bp pills and Eric was all, "Why don't you just not go get them."
"Ha Ha", Chuckle, Chuckle, "OK honey"
"No, I'm serious, Let's just let things happen."
I just kinda stared at him for a minute, trying to figure out if he was serious or not. We have already been through this once when Conner was SIX WEEKS OLD.
"Are you sure?"
I started all the usual (and important) reason why having a baby right now (even though I am aware it could take another FOUR years.)
And he was all "It will work out".
So I didn't go get them.
AND I HAVEN'T LET HIM TOUCH ME.
The truth is.
I don't want to be pregnant right now. I didn't know how I would feel at a year since it was so difficult getting Conner here. I love my baby. I am completely insanely smitten with both my off springs. IN THE FUTURE (I don't know how long), I am gonna probably want one more little darling to hopefully grace our home with more baby puke and boogers(hopefully pink ones), but right now I IS TIRED.
Eric works nights.
Which means that I work every night.
I have had FOUR solid nights sleep in the past year.
I am not complaining. Just stating facts.
Now he is all butt hurt that I wont just lie back and let him plant his seed.
I feel guilty because even when he was not sure about Conner, I was. I knew having him would be the best thing we had ever done. He finally got on board but not at first. Now he is trying to do the convincing and I am sticking my fingers in my ears. But I is MY body that has to Carry another baby so soon. My boobs that will be the babies sole source of nutrition for six months. My feet that will resemble water balloons for ten months.
I just need another six months.
Sigh...but I think he is serious.
And I feel like a bully.