Thursday, January 29, 2009

Treading Water

I am sorry about the spotty(pun intended) updates. My status has been downgraded as all the bleeding has stopped. I am still sitting on my ass today. Partly because I still want to be careful. But also because, its Thursday, and no person in their right mind starts anything on Thursday. I have manages to get much done through the way of lost though. I have finished season 3 and will start 4 with dinner.

I am still worried about the lack of baby in the pregnancy sac but I guess Monday will show us what we need to know. I feel optimistic as I watched TLC all day yesterday and was all aaaawwwwww. I also was very sick this morning and thankful that I could climb back into bed and sleep it off. I am eating every couple of hours. I would love to say that I am blaming my hunger on the baby to get to eat whatever I want but, DUDE. I go from normal to starving in like 5 seconds. The kicker is I don't have a clue what I want to eat. I get pissed if no one has any suggestions and then I just eat fruit loops. I had a huge salad today which hopefully will make up for all the shit that is in fruit loops.

I have to give props to Eric. That man has really taken care of my and his (potential) offspring. He has cooked and cleaned and laid around with me. Held me and even checks my boobs every little while to see if they are still sore. He is totally vested in us and I am just totally is sappy starry love with him.

E is home from his dad's and I am so happy that I he is here. I had him stay over with his father for a couple of night because I was terrified that I would loose the baby and he would be here. He didn't want to leave me and the first thing he did today was check on "the belly". Its really just fat and bloat at this point but if hes attached to it then who's to judge. Rubbing it makes me feel better so I totally get it.

Well I going back to my couch cause honestly? I am going to milk the last few hours of my bed rest. It don't happen often folks and hopefully this will be the last week laying on my back until Eric takes me on a baby moon.

Love ya!!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

PSST.. over here

Well I saw the ob this morning and I was upgraded to bedrest. The Dr. said it was possible I could have tried to miscarry but of course he doesn't really know.

I had an ultrasound this morning and I am measuring 5 1/2 weeks. I so damned confused. The blood test showed 7-12 weeks. My Dr. said not to count on that and the ultrasound was correct.

There is a sac but no baby. It is still early so I am trying my best to be positive.

So I am on bedrest for a week and they will check me again monday.

I don't have a laptop and the male pregnancy patrol is pretty tuff around here, so I don't know when I will get to update.

I feel ok right now so we will hope for the best!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

What the hell is Pelvic Rest?

Well my uterus decided to start leaking. My cervix are still tightly closed but the uterus is LEAKING. I am supposed to stay calm.


I want this baby so bad.

Not only do I feel out of control. I am the cause of this.

I insisted that it would be ok for us to fool around. Even when Eric was worried I was sure it would be ok.

He rocked my world.

I started bleeding.

Even if all the books say its ok.

Proceed with caution or be prepared to bleed and freak the FUCK OUT.

Oh, I did find that I am somewhere between 7&8 weeks.

However, this is not the way I wanted to get a beta.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Hello My Name is Marie and I am a Lostaholic

So being the "Johnny come lately" that I usually am, I will not be watching the season premier tonight. I will be starting season 3. A friend loaned us season 1 and we were hooked. We finished season 2 last night and I am itching to start 3.

Anyone else crazy about this modern Gilligan's Island?

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Hey there, Hi there, Ho there

I have been trying to post all day and something was wrong and I couldn't get on here. Now I have forgot most of what I wanted to say. Never fear though I still have plenty.

As far as I know there is still a human inside me. I go from feeling elated and happy to, "Oh my gosh! I don't feel pregnant! What if something happened. Eric!"

And then I fall asleep.

My first OB appt was nothing other than confirming pregnancy and I have to wait two more weeks to actually be ready for the real appt, you know the good stuff like how far along and such.

I have no idea how far along I am. I didn't calculate anything last month and I was just trying to get through the holidays. I usually whine on here when Flo stops by and I didn't do that so I actually have no clue.

I am thinking that I am 5 weeks.

I feel great really. I am tired but when I wake up I have a smile on my face and, that my friends, makes all the difference in the world.

We have told our family and some co-workers but are trying to keep things quiet. We all know what can still happen and I try my best not to focus on that, but it is so hard to breathe easy right now.

I love you guys and thank you so much for the congrats. I didn't think Eric and I would get here honestly. I lost faith in my dream and only saw it on the occasions that I would read an encouraging comment or one of the many successes in our blogging community.

I hope that if you stumble upon me that our TTC story can give someone hope.

I hope that 2009 brings even more positive pee sticks and sore boobs!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

OH MY HECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's a baby in there!


Thank you guys for your well wishes!

I am already going to start picking brains.

I need to know if everyone gets a beta? Will my ob perform one or do I ask for it? What are good numbers?

I read lots about getting pregnant and now I need to know how to do pregnant. Anything else I should ask the Dr?

Thank you in advance!

Title Anyone?

Hey my dearies,

Its been a whirlwhind start to my new year so I am behind on posting and commenting.

We celebrated the New Year, with E, at Six Flags and had a fabu time!

We then had another Christmas with my Dad and grandparents.

Finnally got all the decorations taken down.

Celebrated Eric's birthday yesterday.

Peed on three sticks and saw a +, and =, and =.

Dr. Appoitment at 2:30.

I'ma nervous as Hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Work it Girls!

Either my boobs were up all night working out to my tai bo dvd, or I am going to start soon.