Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Then I started thinking about E. Am I making him suffer because my attention is divided? I don't want him to feel like he is not enough and we do not feel that way I just want another child. He wants that too he says so all the time.
I am neglecting my husband we are not having fun it is all about having a baby. I can't focus on just us anymore. This consumes me and something has got to give. I think that after next cycle if it doesn't happen we will take a break and enjoy the summer. I do not want to do this but I miss my husband. I miss the fun stuff. So lets hope that something breaks so that I can give the two people in my life that I care about the most me back.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
E.P.T CAN KISS MY ASS.
It is not over I am only on 9dpo so there is still a chance. I will not be bummed yet!!!!
I will update after lunch.
Monday, April 28, 2008
Sunday was a repeat however he came in and had dinner and just had to go back outside for 10 minutes. I let him and he came back and went to his room. He came in and said mom something is wrong my room smells like poop. I went in there and the smell liked to have knocked me down. He had stepped in fresh poo outside and tracked it all in my house. I scrubbed his room with pine sol and scrub brush and sprayed fabreeze bleached his shoes. Well, we could not get that smell out and my eyes drifted to the bed I had been washing his sheets and had not made it yet and he had managed to ground pooh in his mattress we scrubbed the mattress to no avail. Finally I gave up and put him to bed in my room.
This morning my husband come in from work and say wow the house smells really good and clean but I keep getting a whiff of dog poo what is that all about? Me and E broke into a fit of giggles because we tried so hard. So I shall try again tonight but I think I see a new mattress in the near future.
I am 8 days past ovulation and so want to know now. I want to test and I know it is too early but I do very much. I would just feel better if I peed on a stick. I did do something very strange last night I needed something salty and I ended up eating Frito's and ranch dressing is was heavenly.
So there you have it my wild weekend.
Friday, April 25, 2008
I feel nausea this morning but I cannot judge anything but this because I feel this way every month I think it is the anticipation. We have started baseball season my family's favorite time. We have a baseball game tonight and E is so excited I hope the weather will hold out.
Well not much else going on here.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
But, I have had a very productive week. It pains me to the very core to admit this but I have been a blond tornado. I have done projects at break neck speed, organized my whole desk, caught up on paper mail. Not to toot my own horn but I have been a great employee. I caught things that I normally would have missed having my head buried in this magnificent supposedly helpful machine.
Now do I want to go back to the world before computer. He(double hockey sticks) no!!!!! I like my attention hogging machine that lets me visit my friends during working hours. I am just saying that for the work world they are not always as big of a help for me as a distraction..
Ok, enough of my long drawn out observation wanna here about the fertility world? No, you don't really there is nothing going on I am 4 days into the 2ww. I talked to my best friend and she is 5 days past her due date we are both just waiting. I am sure her result will be better than mine. (See my optimistic side?) I will tell you that we did the unthinkable we used the egg whites. I know it is and was gross but if it gets us a baby I suspect you will all be trying it don't even try to deny it!!
Well I must get off of here so I can work!!
Monday, April 21, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
Thursday, April 10, 2008
- What I could have done the last two weeks.
- How to properly dispose or cruelly destroy my opk sticks and pg tests
- Do you think I can get a genuine birth certificate for my dogs?
- Empty belly syndrome
- Shit Shit Shit
- Spending the night upside down
- We are so buying a great bass boat
I could go on and on but it is a new cycle and a new hope
I will start Clomid tomorrow I am putting my fears aside and just doing it. I checked the Wal-mart prescription list and it is $9 not bad. On a bad note we have no fertility coverage.
I have still been reading posts and commenting and even when I am not posting I am still here. I spent a lot of time talking to my bff that is having a baby in a couple of weeks. I know that this seems like it would make things worse but it didn't. I miss her as she lives in Alaska and I am so happy for her and her husband. It is fun to get to listen and help her not be so worried. I have been there and can give her tips from my perspective.
Well more to come later gotta get back to work.