Thursday, October 30, 2008

Halloween Eve Eve

Halloween was a big no-no in my house growing up. I was told that it was a day to celebrate the devil and that babies and cats were sacrificed to Satan on that day so we couldn't go trick or treating lest we give the devil his Holiday. I have never went trick or treating save on time when I was 13 and went with my aunt to help with my cousins(who got to celebrate).

I remember the school parties and how everyone was dressed up in the cute costumes and how my mother insisted that I be removed from the classroom so that I don't get evil stink on me. There was one teacher that I could tell felt sorry for me and she snuck me a popcorn ball when I was in second grade. That was the best treat I have had to this day.

As I got older I would get invited to parties and have to make up some lame excuse as to why I would not be attending. Everyone know the reason but I liked to pretend and my buddies let me.

At 14 years old they had turned the old prison in our town into a MASSIVE haunted house. It was 4 stories of spook. Of course all my friends were going and kept raving about how great it was going to be. Well, our church (that was pastored by my grandfather) sat right across the street from the horror goldmine. We hatched a brilliant plan for me to sneak away from the church activities and run through to haunted house, then return before anyone ever missed.

We spend weeks planning and I knew it had to be just the right moment. I waited all night. My best friend came to the church with me that night and was planning to help me escape.

Darkness had just fell and everyone was ushered into the church to say a prayer for all the lost souls over at the spook house and I sat on the back row calculating exactly how long it would take to get there and back. I figured 30 minutes. But wait, what if the line was long. Better make that 45 minutes.

My bff was anxious. "Come on". "Lets just go now you wont get caught I swear".

I wanted to listen to her but she said that exact same thing when we thought it would be funny smoke cigarettes in the little storage room at the high school. And the time we left school and walked to the Piggly Wiggly and my grandmother just happened to be doing her shopping. There were many, many times that I had heard those words.

I got up and went outside. I could see my destination. It was right across the street. Just a brief sprint and I would be there. I knew she wanted to go and our whole teenage hoodlum posse was waiting on me. I knew this was it. Now or Never.


I couldn't do it. Fear. Shame that maybe it was wrong. More fear. Embarrassment. Anger.

I finally got to go to my first spook spectacular at 25.

My son will NEVER know what it feels like to miss out on being a kid.

11 comments:

honeywine said...

Wow...that sucks. It's a day for children and before that it was a day to stave off the devil! I really hate that sort of overzealousness!

Morgan said...

Awww, I'm sorry! :( I'm glad you learned from your past and wont let your kid go through the same thing..props!

BrandiH2007 said...

As much as it may be "The Devil's Holiday" What better time of year is there for kids to really use their imaginations and pretend to be whatever it is they want.

I'm so sorry you didn't get to enjoy the haunted prison with your friends, but I probably wouldn't have been able to do it either.

Anonymous said...

:( I hate it that you were not able to do the same things that most other kids were doing.I couldnt begin to imagine not being able to celebrate halloween. I hope you are able to dress up this year tho...and relive your childhood for just one night with no restrictions. Maybe you will be able to spook the kiddo's. And Amen on letting your's be a kid. You sound like a WONDERFUL mom.

Marie said...

We have the most incredible display set up this year.

My husband is my best supporter and always makes sure that I get to relive any moments I missed as a kid with E and himself.

We are pimpin our house and ourselves for Halloween.

I am a corpse bride. Take that!!

To A T said...

I hear you on the being sheltered!
My parents never allowed us to do the typical "trick or treat" ing either, but we did go to a "harvest party" at our church, which I guess was a consolation?

Hope your son has a fun time! :)

Aunt Becky said...

Sounds a lot like the way my husband grew up. And it sounds hard.

Peeveme said...

Marie, That sound really awful. I don't think haunted houses are all THAT but the missing out thing has to really suck.

BTW...Haunted houses are so much LESS scary than telling children the Devil will get them if they aren't good. That's cruel and slightly abusive.

Peeveme said...

Marie, That sound really awful. I don't think haunted houses are all THAT but the missing out thing has to really suck.

BTW...Haunted houses are so much LESS scary than telling children the Devil will get them if they aren't good. That's cruel and slightly abusive.

Jen said...

There were two little girls in my daycare class that didn't get to participate in Halloween. Their moms' brought them party hats to wear, but wouldn't let them dress up. But they had no problem with them dressing up every other day from the dress up box.

Io said...

Man, I never understood that. The secretary next door said she was going to a "Halloween alternative" at her church tonight when I asked if she was taking her kids trick or treating.
I mean, really? It's such a secular holiday that is all about being silly and eating candy! I feel so bad for you that you didn't get all that. And so glad you are making sure your son doesn't feel left out.