Tuesday, August 26, 2008

100th?

My dashboard says this is my 100th post but on my blog it say 98th. This is a pretty heavy one so we are going to say that it is the 100th.

We got the results back from Eric's test and long story short....

Everything borders on abnormal
Everything that should be high is low.

Does this mean that we cannot get pregnant? No. Does it mean it presents more of a fucking challenge? Yes.

All this time I just knew there was a problem with me. I never once considered that Eric.

This is new territory. I am lost and I feel like I am about to drown.

I know how to test for ovulation, pee on sticks, supplements, iui...

What is the FUCK do I know about semen? Nothing. I know its wet, and sometimes sticky and not very pleasant when its your turn the sleep in "the spot".

We have to meet with an RE that is a given. But what do I do until then?

I know Eric is sad but he doesn't show these things and when he does it is in a sarcastic way and I know that he is hurting. I do not know how to comfort him or even if he wants me too. I love him so much and I KNOW how he is probably feeling and I hurt for my husband.

He just felt all the negative pee sticks, every sign of flo, every monthly disappointment in one FUCKING test.

He is watching CNN I am blogging...I guess Mars and Venus

21 comments:

Io said...

You know I know. HUGE hugs. Just keep reminding him how much you love him and you'll get through this.

Jen said...

Oh man, I do know how you're feeling. (((hugs)))
Sorry about the bad news. MFIF sucks a big fat fatty.

CappyPrincess said...

I can't even begin to offer advice, but I can offer hugs.

tammy said...

Oh, I can feel your pain as if it was my own. My DH went from good to, "Are you frickin' serious?" in a 3 year time span.

We have abnormal shappes, low count and low testosterone. The RE will probably refer you to a urologist and I highly suggest it. DH is on Clomid and Arimdex and it is really helping out.

I am sorry for the crap results. ((hugs))

honeywine said...

You mean "borderline NORMAL" missy! I know either way you say it, it still sucks goat balls. I suspect that's where M. and I will be soon too. I'm sorry hon.

dmarie said...

I'm sorry about your husbands SA results. MF is our problem too. I agree with Tammy as far as what will probably happen next. Also, SA results can vary. He should definitely have another. If you have any questions, feel free to contact me.

Jen said...

Happy 100th.

I am so sorry for the results. That sucks.

tammy said...

ROFL.... I wish he got all that crap. The Clomid actually makes him more mellow. Well, as mellow as my DH can get.

I asked him he first month if he was getting sore moobies and he threw a pillow me.

I have actually been really happy with our urologist and his willingness to try things that a regular urologist won't.

Oh, wait.... He DOES get hotflashes... I LOVE it. At least we both feel the 'burn'.

Leslee said...

Sorry for the bad results. Let him know that whenever he's ready to talk, you're ready. He'll come around eventually. If he seems down, remind him that you love him, he's not in it alone and that it's not the end, because it isn't. It sucks, but it isn't the end.

Leslee
babyattheend.blogspot.com

Cibele said...

I am here from lost& found... I am sorry about the bad results . Don;t give up hope! HUGS

Hez said...

Here from Lost & Found. I'm sorry you're in this position.

Agreeing with the others-- you should go see a urologist (who specializes in infertility) next. And depending on what they find as the cause (for instance, varicoceles) and the treatment options available, you may or may not choose to treat DH.

IVF/ICSI (twice) was our solution in the end.

hezinivfland.blogspot.com

Elana Kahn said...

*sigh* I'm so sorry you had to get that kind of news, but thank goodness there is definitely a solution to help. And even if the urologist can't fix everything perfectly, there is always IVF (w/ or w/out ICSI). And I wish you very good luck getting pregnant VERY soon!

annacyclopedia said...

Just came from the L&F. When we found out that Manny's vasectomy reversal had failed, he needed a lot of reassurance that I still loved him, that I didn't blame him, and that I would stand by him and we'd work through it all together. From time to time, I think he also needs to hear that my sadness about everything we're dealing with is not about him - it's just about the situation. I tend to think that husbands worry about their wives and hate to see them go through pain, and when they feel like they're causing the pain, they just don't know what to do.

Wishing you both peace and strength as you absorb this news.

Arpee said...

wow... this needs another kind of special water.

Morgan said...

I'm so sorry about the results...but look at the bright side- now they know what else they need to do to get you 2 that much closer to your miracle!!

kccat said...

Sorry about the bad news. Hugs coming your way. Sorry to hear you are faced with a new problem.

100th post is exciting though.

ICLW

Jenn said...

I'm so sorry. *hugs*

(ICLW)

Ophelia said...

:( I'm so sorry hun. My DH is having his test today and I'm terrified...

lub said...

I am sure you don't want to hear this but this story sounds like me exactly a year ago... I knew there was something wrong with me but with FJ? Couldn't be. But there was and we went to an RE and it sped up the process and now I have a 10 week old as a result. I am thinking of you and have empathy- ICLW catching up.

Jaymee said...

First, HUGE HUGS!

Second, MIF is much easier to deal with than FIF. It may mean some lifestyle changes, or a different procedure.

Third, you have the strength to get through this. You have made it this far. I know it feels devastating and crappy now, but I have also read your blog and you are a strong and determined woman.

Keep us updated.

HAPPY 100th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kirke said...

That sucks. I know what you are feeling. We are in the exact same position.

(((hugs)))