Thursday, December 11, 2008

fa la la la la

I promise that I am almost done with my bitchy posts. Just a couple more days and I will be back to cotton candy and giggles. Well, I don't know if I am ever that cheery but hopefully, I will be somewhat tolerable.

I have been really ticked at how un-magical things are feeling in our home.

As I was heading to school last night I actually got a few moments to talk to Eric. He was all "Are you mad at me?" I'm all "nope"

"Yes you are."

"Why would I be mad Eric?"

"I dunno but you are."


"Is it because I was sleeping last night?"

"NO!" (Hell yes thats why!)

"Well I know you are mad you even blogged about it"

" I am just frustrated. I know you need your sleep."

"I am not into it this year. "What if I told you I don't even care about decorating that tree?"

I had nothing to say. Honestly, I don't care either. E is going to be at his dad's for Christmas. I just feel like we have no Christmas spirit this year and it sucks. I started to get mad but that would not be fair since I feel the same way he does.

I have shopped, made Christmas cookies, had people over. I feel so empty and cold. Our family needs hope for Christmas. Or maybe some good weed.


Lola said...

Honey, I could help you out on the last part if only you lived in MA. We're all legal up to an ounce as of January 1st!

It does indeed put the fa back in the la, la, la!

I'll give the computer screen a couple shotguns for ya...

Morgan said...

I second that notion, you just need some good weed! lol

Beautiful Mess said...

I am wishing for your family to find the hope..and maybe the weed too ;o)

Anonymous said...

Me either. It seems to be spreading around here. I've done jack squat for Christmas. I haven't even tortured the dog with his santa hat. :(

Anonymous said...

I have ZERO christmas spirit this year. Then again, I haven't really had any for the past 5 years... but this year, it's like it doesn't even exist to me.

Screw Santa... bring on 2009!

Bright Eyes said...
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Beautiful Mess said...

*The deleted comment is mine, sorry. I posted it using my other account*

I just wanted to let you know I gave you and your blog an award. I don't know if you have already received one, but if so, ya got another ;o)
Enjoy your day!

kate said...

Oh, man. I know how you feel. H and I had xmas here in Winston last year, and even with all of the lights and the mantle and the wreath on the door and the tree and the advent candles and the christmas cookies, it just didn't feel like xmas without family. Of course, this year feels all weird because the only decor I've put up is the mantle crap ('cos I can't find the box with the outdoor decor in in!), but I definitely won't put a tree up this year because we are going to texas for christmas. So, even though it will feel more like a holiday once we get home, we feel right now like it's not really christmas because the house is so empty. Oh, well.

And I TOTALLY have those kind of fights with H, too. I just snapped a little bit at him for turning off the porch light that I left on for myself so I could see to get in after my final. And then I snapped at him for passing off a sales call to me. But really, I'm pissed because I suspect that he's lying to me a little bit. Most weekend days he says he's going to the library or a used book store or a discount clothing store or the drug store (all of which are places he knows I will never want to go with him), but he almost always comes home empty-handed. SO what the hell is he doing when he goes away for 1 1/2 hrs (or more)??? I mean, is he going off and getting high or something? Is he (god forbid) seeing someone else? Or is he just irritating the crap out of local shop employees by browsing for an hour, every saturday and sunday, but never buying anything... Grr. So, instead of confronting him, I just bitch at him about other stuff. Stupid, I know.

Well, here's to both of us getting our brains back in the holiday spirit, right???

Charlie Hills said...

Wow, even making Christmas cookies didn't help? This could be serious. But I know what you're feeling. I feel it a bit too. I'm hoping to turn it around with twelve batches of Chex Mix this week.