Friday, September 26, 2008

infertile Mertile

Today was supposed to be our first RE appointment and here I sit on my period. I didn't do the math before we set the appoitment but I soon realized my error and called. I am 3 days late so I was getting a little what ify but not in the junkie POAS way. I knew I was going to start due to my crazy pms symptoms this month.

I am really thinking about consulting a counselor as I have got to get out of this depression. I am not handleing things very well.

I am ok on the surface but if for one second I let my thoughts wonder then I am a basket case. I am really scared that I am going to totally loose it. There is this crazy woman just waiting to make a fool of the shell that is smiling and laughing.

9 comments:

Ophelia said...

{{{HUGS}}} Sorry you didn't get to go to your appointment. That sucks :(

I would definitely seek a therapist or counselor to help you cope. Actually, your RE's office should be able to direct you to someone with experince in dealing with IF. (At least mine does.)

And..As to your question in your blogger headling "Where is that special water?" It's in Australia. It's true. Nicole Kidman swears it!

honeywine said...

At least, you have your man beside you. ;) Yeah, they're not much help either. Bring on the booze!!!!! Then again...uh...mmm...bring on the counseling instead. Seriously, I think that's a great idea. I know very few people who see a counselor who don't get something from it. I wish M. would do it, but he refuses. It's good to have someone to pour it all out to.

Aunt Becky said...

Oh dude. There's no shame in seeing someone about what you're going through. It's a whole lot and you're handling it really well.

Vikki a.k.a "V" said...

Opt for counseling, I did and it was extremely helpful. This is a very stressful process and you need an outlet. My husband and I even went together a few times. Hang in there and know that you have support from your on-line team!

Jaymee said...

i am so sorry that you are going through a depression period. most of the time i feel like i am just hovering above serious depression. therapy can be very helpful getting through these challenges. try to find someone who deals with infertility it helps when they are more knowledgeable about the pertinent issues.

hope you start feeling better. this is a difficult journey at times. sending you huge hugs.

Michelle said...

Sorry about your appointment. I think a counselor may help. I hope you feel better soon. Your not alone. ((HUGS))

Jenn said...

I had to start seeing someone while we were trying and kept it up until I was a few months pregnant. It really did help.
(ICLW)

Echloe said...

Depression and IF go hand in hand. I think we've all experienced it to some extent in this process. I hope you find a counselor who you mesh with.

ICLW

Io said...

I think it'd be a great idea to see somebody. This IF stuff is so horrid mentally.
And I *always* manage to screw up my appointments like that.